I dont feel good enough to talk to any lad, i dont feel worthy. i cant let anyone in, i be horrible to them so they wont want me, and i hate it. i hate not wanting anything with any other lad but you. even after everything i will still take you back.

words i would love to hear..

I’m sorry for not caring when I said I did, not loving you when I said I did. I’m sorry for throwing away the wonderful thing we had. I’m sorry for not speaking up when I should have. Not respecting myself enough to know that my self-loathing was being spilled over onto you.

if only..